Dear God

What conspiracy is this?
Where has wisdom fled?
Why do you torture me?
When shall this pain end?

You created me and for that,
I shall be in your debt forever,
You write the pages of my life,
I merely a player in your plans.

When was mercy lost to sadism?
Was there any divine truth there?
Tell me, my lords, you simply must!
How long shall you ignore my voice?

You sent me into one terrible abyss,
I fought my way through the dark,
In your name, I didn't give in and die,
The battle was won, but I was lost.

I thanked you for the power,
Enough to survive the terror,
But tragically it wasn't enough,
To save my weakened spirit.

The abyss may have failed,
To take life from this body,
But the abyss had succeeded,
In the destruction of my heart.

I lingered with a hollow chest,
I survived on mere cold breath,
I sleep with an amputated spirit,
I wake with nothing worth doing.

You sent me an angel,
Who did resurrect me,
Who touched my heart,
Who revived purpose.

But no, you took it away,
You gave me happiness,
But swiftly took it away,
Before I could grasp on it.

You threw me yet again,
Into a darker abyss still,
I feel my heart crumbling,
The pain is far too severe.

I pray to you great lord,
Please, give me my angel,
Provide relief to my soul,
Provide life to this heart.