Immune

The world around me,
Holds firm one belief,
That you exist above,
The god in the clouds.

I could never bring myself,
To believe the empty words,
Which came from nowhere,
Which came from nothing.

But nevertheless the world believes,
They believe that you would protect,
No matter the severity of the danger,
They turn to you when none listen.

I swear it, what I say is true,
Your existence I don't believe,
But the world says you listen,
Even to the lostest of all souls.

Well then if you're there, 'Lord',
Hear my words as I speak them,
I hope they echo for all eternity,
Within the ears driving you mad.

Do whatever you wish to do,
I do not care anymore now,
They say you write our lives,
Why do you write as you do?

My life, belongs to me, its mine,
They call you the maker of all,
Under that illusion you gave me,
I will do with it as I will see fit.

All you've ever written for me,
Has always been a tale of anger,
A tale of loss and disappointment,
A tale of endless mortal torture.

The world says you conjure miracles,
I must concede that to be golden truth,
I have suffered the wrath of them all,
How you caused them to destroy me.

Life has shown me the miracles,
Which has prevented everything,
With the potential of happiness,
Into achieving its true capabilities.

You have always mangled my mind,
Writing my life absent your 'mercy',
You've sent 'angels' within my story,
Truly wondrous, beautiful creatures.

They show me such amazing sights,
Only to wake me up and crush me,
I see with the 'angels' around me,
Happiness to make the soul cry.

But you, in your 'infinite wisdom',
Prevent those visions and mirages,
Into ever forming within reality,
Why show them if I can't live them?

Perhaps if my intentions were vile,
I would understand my failures,
But I have no such desires to deserve,
Such a cold and inhuman prison cell.

You surround me with happiness,
Within all those who I have with me,
But yet you prevent that same bliss,
From ever coming close to my soul.

Hear my words, you insane child,
Do what you wish to do with me,
My patience has finally been lost,
Do whatever your sick mind wishes.

You wish to dangle happiness?
Do what you want to do to me,
I'll never ever believe anything,
I'll never ever believe what I see.

You give me the promise of love,
And you've never fulfilled that,
You've caused me to stumble,
At every step and crush me.

Hear these words, I'll never believe it,
You've taught me something I value,
Never believe the ones around me,
Never believe what my eyes show.

From now on all I'll ever see,
Shall always be the darkest,
So dark you cannot see within,
Your light has no place here!

So tell me, you vengeful 'forgiver',
Now that I know, I have nothing,
Nothing written for me sees bliss,
How will you disappoint me now?