Ask The Voices

Gone are those days,
When you hid within,
Buried within a mask,
Hidden within shadows.

I must have tried for an age,
To smite you to the afterlife,
But you resisted as I had to,
You held on to your frail life.

You sought refuge within me,
Within my spirit and my mind,
All the time I'd hear your voice,
Shouting within my silent head.

Pointing me in the direction,
Promising glorious happiness,
Promising me a beautiful life,
Promising a heart full of bliss.

As I tread down the path you drew,
I followed it blindly with pure trust,
I pushed myself to a whole new life,
I pushed myself away from my past.

As I was setting within this shell,
The shell which you put me in,
You told me another tale of life,
You told me of the power within.

But the fates had turned away,
Plaguing my path with failure,
At every step and at every turn,
Condemned to pain and suffering.

As I was shipwrecked on lonely seas,
You spoke to me again and I listened,
The promise of true love, lost away,
The promise of a happy heart, broken.

Silence you passenger and hear me,
Answer my oldest question you must,
Take away the darkness within me,
And tell me the sin that deserves this.

My road has forever been paved,
With the noblest of all intentions,
Yet the fates see fit as they destroy,
Destroy my path and also my spirit.

Answer me now you passenger,
For my spirit is decaying away,
What terrible crime I committed,
To deserve torture before my eyes.

Tell me why I fail as I always do,
Why the happiness is always lost,
Why is it that no matter what I do,
The Angel is always further away.

Stonewall

To say my sanity had hanged,
Upon the weakest of threads,
Would truly be an understate,
The drop below would cripple.

Strung so high above the ground,
Couldn't even see the Earth below,
But I knew that any moment now,
The string would tear and hurl me.

I was not wrong and happened it did,
String lose and gravity took control,
Plummeting me towards the Earth,
And plunging my mind deep to hell.

But as my mind ceased flight,
Freefall gave way to a crash,
A crippling crash to the dirt,
Smashing my mind to sand.

My mind one with the dust,
My mind destroyed by fate,
My sanity torn by the angel,
My sanity lost to me again.

But as it almost dwindled away,
In the darkest of hellish abyss,
I found a place that felt safe,
My mind was close to fatality.

I must protect this last retreat,
Prevent anyone to enter again,
Prevent the world from taking,
My sanity once and for always.

I don't know where this place is,
But I know it shall keep me safe,
I shall never have another angel,
Enter within the safe zone again.

I'll build a wall around this place,
Towering higher than the heavens,
Towering beyond the angel's flight,
Protecting this safe place for life.

No one shall ever see this place,
No angel shall ever enter here,
My mind shall not be lost to you,
My mind will never be lost again.

The wall which you helped me build,
Fuelling my rage and my desperation,
Inflicting wounds to scar me forever,
You shall never enter here, I swear.

House Fire

I walked into my home today,
It didn't feel quite the same,
Nothing was gone nor lost,
But I recognised nothing.

As I opened the door to enter,
I knew this was my safe place,
But I had nothing here except,
A broken memory of shadows.

As I rest in the chair I always do,
I feel no comfort as I formerly did,
Only a question remains within,
"What lost soul would wish to stay?"

As I ventured to my own chamber,
The place I slept for all these years,
Dreaming paradise with my angel,
Waking up with her further away.

I drew my eyes to the writings,
Writings scratched on the wall,
Written by my own right hand,
But why would I write as I do?

The words etched upon the wall,
They speak of unrelenting agony,
Agony that had been self inflicted,
What monster had possessed me?

I can't stay here a moment longer,
This is place is nothing but prison,
A prison which rapes the minds,
A prison which batters the souls.

Before I leave I must do one thing,
Since this house held me for ages,
I must prevent it corrupting others,
I must save others from purgatory.

I know what my duty calls of me,
I know what I must see done now,
This manifestation of purest evil,
Must be destroyed to save the aeons.

This monstrosity was birthed by fire,
With fire shall it have its last rites,
Burn down to ashes you hellspawn,
May your darkness never be seen.

Immune

The world around me,
Holds firm one belief,
That you exist above,
The god in the clouds.

I could never bring myself,
To believe the empty words,
Which came from nowhere,
Which came from nothing.

But nevertheless the world believes,
They believe that you would protect,
No matter the severity of the danger,
They turn to you when none listen.

I swear it, what I say is true,
Your existence I don't believe,
But the world says you listen,
Even to the lostest of all souls.

Well then if you're there, 'Lord',
Hear my words as I speak them,
I hope they echo for all eternity,
Within the ears driving you mad.

Do whatever you wish to do,
I do not care anymore now,
They say you write our lives,
Why do you write as you do?

My life, belongs to me, its mine,
They call you the maker of all,
Under that illusion you gave me,
I will do with it as I will see fit.

All you've ever written for me,
Has always been a tale of anger,
A tale of loss and disappointment,
A tale of endless mortal torture.

The world says you conjure miracles,
I must concede that to be golden truth,
I have suffered the wrath of them all,
How you caused them to destroy me.

Life has shown me the miracles,
Which has prevented everything,
With the potential of happiness,
Into achieving its true capabilities.

You have always mangled my mind,
Writing my life absent your 'mercy',
You've sent 'angels' within my story,
Truly wondrous, beautiful creatures.

They show me such amazing sights,
Only to wake me up and crush me,
I see with the 'angels' around me,
Happiness to make the soul cry.

But you, in your 'infinite wisdom',
Prevent those visions and mirages,
Into ever forming within reality,
Why show them if I can't live them?

Perhaps if my intentions were vile,
I would understand my failures,
But I have no such desires to deserve,
Such a cold and inhuman prison cell.

You surround me with happiness,
Within all those who I have with me,
But yet you prevent that same bliss,
From ever coming close to my soul.

Hear my words, you insane child,
Do what you wish to do with me,
My patience has finally been lost,
Do whatever your sick mind wishes.

You wish to dangle happiness?
Do what you want to do to me,
I'll never ever believe anything,
I'll never ever believe what I see.

You give me the promise of love,
And you've never fulfilled that,
You've caused me to stumble,
At every step and crush me.

Hear these words, I'll never believe it,
You've taught me something I value,
Never believe the ones around me,
Never believe what my eyes show.

From now on all I'll ever see,
Shall always be the darkest,
So dark you cannot see within,
Your light has no place here!

So tell me, you vengeful 'forgiver',
Now that I know, I have nothing,
Nothing written for me sees bliss,
How will you disappoint me now?

Limbo

The day you took my heart,
I gave it to you so willingly,
You could see it so infected,
By the darkness all around.

Your eyes held a promise,
A promise to rid the dark,
A promise to cure the heart,
A promise, to feel the light.

You held my heart close to yours,
And you showed me my strength,
You taught me the means to use it,
Against the darkness rooted deep.

The happening was a miracle,
The darkness had been defeated,
The sun shone brightly in the sky,
My spirit was basking in the glow.

Night was sure to follow at sunset,
The sun hidden beyond the horizon,
The night rode swiftly with darkness,
And darkness crawled around again.

You held my heart close to yours,
And I let the darkness do its worst,
The darkness which made me home,
Was unable to touch our mystic aura.

The darkness failed and light had won,
Your eyes which held that sacred vow,
Saw it fulfilled and showed me light,
Beyond the darkness that shadowed.

As the sun rose again to spread light,
The sunrays shone on me once more,
My spirit felt such wonderful bliss,
And angel, you have all my gratitude.

I watched the sun rise above the hill,
It truly was such a beauty to behold,
Angel, come here, do you see the sun?
The question remained unanswered.

I turned my head to look for you,
But you were no longer with me,
My eyes searched the landscape,
But you were nowhere in sight.

Angel, where have you gone?
I looked back towards the sun,
Angel, you still hold my heart,
Angel, where have you gone?

I looked at the sun and realized,
I realized that it was all a facade,
The sun, it rises not in the east,
My face is looking towards west.

I knew the world beyond my eyes,
Was a trick you played so perfectly,
You took my heart and left me here,
In this false world you've shown me.

You've resigned me to search,
For the way out of this maze,
Condemning me for the now,
Within your mystical shadow.