The Tunnel

There has been much,
Spoken about the end,
Elders speak of a light,
That heals all wounds.

I had begun my journey,
To the talked about end,
To seek the light's power,
That could save my soul.

"Be warned!" The elders said,
"The tunnel crawls with evil,
There is no saviour till the end,
Either the light, either death."

I accepted the danger,
I travelled the tunnel,
I had fought the dark,
I could feel the light.

The end was in sight,
The light was shining.
I let down my guard,
I let the light take me.

I closed my eyes and waited,
Waited for the light to heal,
To heal these scars and cuts,
To heal this lost soul of mine.

I opened my eyes to a lie,
There was no light there,
Only a dark lonely abyss,
There was no light there.

Rest In Peace

Fare you well brother,
You shall not be missed,
But know this one truth,
You had always loved.

You provided me safe harbour,
In the darkest of perilous nights,
You provided my mind relief,
In the darkest of evil shadows.

You were a part of me,
Our hearts beat as one,
Your eyes have looked,
Through my own eyes.

Fare you well brother of mine,
I hope you shall never return,
Yet part yearns for resurrection,
As you had done several times.

Rose from the dead,
And saved my soul,
Rose from dark hell,
And saved my mind.

Look after me brother,
From the great beyond,
Rise again my brother,
To protect me in the dark.

Dear God

What conspiracy is this?
Where has wisdom fled?
Why do you torture me?
When shall this pain end?

You created me and for that,
I shall be in your debt forever,
You write the pages of my life,
I merely a player in your plans.

When was mercy lost to sadism?
Was there any divine truth there?
Tell me, my lords, you simply must!
How long shall you ignore my voice?

You sent me into one terrible abyss,
I fought my way through the dark,
In your name, I didn't give in and die,
The battle was won, but I was lost.

I thanked you for the power,
Enough to survive the terror,
But tragically it wasn't enough,
To save my weakened spirit.

The abyss may have failed,
To take life from this body,
But the abyss had succeeded,
In the destruction of my heart.

I lingered with a hollow chest,
I survived on mere cold breath,
I sleep with an amputated spirit,
I wake with nothing worth doing.

You sent me an angel,
Who did resurrect me,
Who touched my heart,
Who revived purpose.

But no, you took it away,
You gave me happiness,
But swiftly took it away,
Before I could grasp on it.

You threw me yet again,
Into a darker abyss still,
I feel my heart crumbling,
The pain is far too severe.

I pray to you great lord,
Please, give me my angel,
Provide relief to my soul,
Provide life to this heart.

My Heart Speaks

It must have been a rainy day,
The day you entered the world,
For all the heavens had wept,
The loss of their greatest angel.

I didn't feel anything,
The day we first met,
But today I see myself,
Whispering your name.

I know not when,
I stirred for you,
But I know that,
I am truly yours.

Today I beat in a rhythm,
A rhythm to your name,
The name which holds,
The greatest angel of all.

I'd sooner cease the beat,
Than have you stare at me,
With eyes filled with scorn,
With eyes filled with hatred.

I apologise my angel,
For any pain I caused,
For anger I sparked,
I didn't ever mean to.

I'm not a clairvoyant,
I know not for sure,
But I feel something,
Stirring within you.

I could be wrong,
But maybe I could,
Know hidden truths,
But I could be wrong.

I shall not speak out of turn,
I shall press nothing upon you,
But, fair angel, if I feel the truth,
I shall not stir away, I shall stay.

I will never be too far,
Your words will always,
Find me in the darkness,
Where I shall stay to hear.