Stabbed By Cupid

I still remember those beautiful eyes,
Which never failed to ignite my heart,
I still remember that angelic smile,
Which never failed to light up my life.

I still remember how foolishly I fell so deep,
I still remember how carelessly I lost my heart,
I still remember how madly I lost my own mind,
To the simple symphony of your wondrous voice.

I’ll never forget how you’re eyes pierced my soul,
I’ll never forget how my heart sang your name,
I’ll never forget the tears I cried through the night,
I’ll never forget piecing together my broken heart.

Alas! I shall always be a fool for you,
My heart keeps singing your name,
My eyes keep looking for your face,
My ears keep listening for your voice.

I will never forget how deeply I feel,
For the Angel dreamt of in slumber,
Surviving these nine sleepless years,
I know one thing beyond all doubt.

It doesn’t matter what may happen,
If the world crumbles under my feet,
Even if my life shall leave this body,
My wasted heart will always love you.

Angel On Earth

You hid so well,
Amongst faces,
In the crowds,
An angel hiding.

You've been struck down,
By damned dervish souls,
Your wings dismembered,
By godlessness and wretches.

But your halo still glowed,
Just like that wondrous smile,
Which the world sees on you,
A glow of goodness showed me.

Anyone would have been fooled,
But I see that halo glow too dimly,
Well hidden from the world's view,
the loss of your wings, an unholy sin.

Now tell me young angel, for I must know,
Would you take my hand even for a second?
A mere mortal fell for the princess of heaven,
Take my hand and I shall take an oath for you.

For as long as you would see fit of me,
I would sacrifice the rest of my life,
To become the one you truly deserve,
One to bring a smile to god's daughter.

Your Friend Forever

"You're the best person I know,
The truest friend to have existed,
I trust you more than I do myself,
You shall always be a dear friend."

These were the words you told me,
As you were crying on my shoulder,
When a crazed lad broke your heart,
You loved him, he simply lusted you.

As I wipe the tears from your face,
I feel something I had suppressed,
Suppressed deep for a long time,
I felt my heart yearn for yours.

As you regained your own reserve,
My mind battled with my heart,
Should I tell you the hidden truth,
Or should I keep it hidden still?

"You bring joy to my heart,
Just by lending me your ear,
You are my faithful friend,
Stay with me till time ends."

My mind told my heart,
Be silent, be still, stir not!
Your question is answered,
Be silent forever, as a friend.

My Saviour

I felt my blood go cold,
I felt my heart go weak,
I felt my feet go limp,
I felt my head go numb.

I knew I was nearing the end,
I knew my life was almost over,
I had no reason to draw breath,
My heart had no reason to beat.

I walked around as a corpse,
I was dead yet was not dying,
My heart had stopped beating,
Yet my body refusing to die off.

My tired eyes looked for a reason,
Looked for a reason to draw breath,
I needed a reason to prevent death,
I came to you looking for that reason.

You saw the pain deep in my eyes,
You felt my cold heart shuddering,
You took grasp of my lifeless hands,
You embraced me with your warmth.

You touched me and I felt it,
As if god breathed life in me,
As he did to gift life unto all,
You granted me breath again.

You held me close and I felt it,
I felt my heart flutter in ecstasy,
It was once struggling to beat,
You granted me my life again.

You pulled me from my lifeless knees,
Instilled me with one thing I needed,
I came to you for a reason to breathe,
I found the reason in your embrace.

New Hope

This morning I woke in peace,
A feeling I couldn't remember,
I woke with complete serenity,
Finally I healed from insomnia.

I remember when I lay in pieces,
I struggled to put myself together,
While putting my shards together,
You came along and saw me there.

I saw you standing there before me,
I felt my heart revived in my chest,
I feared the fallen angel had torn me,
But you, provided me with new hope.

I placed my hand forward,
You placed yours on mine,
And pulled me from the dark,
Out of the darkness into light.

As I wake to the morning,
With a new revived heart,
I now see it all too clearly,
This is where I want to be.

Dream Forever

The day was long,
The day was lost,
The night is gone,
I lay on my bed.

I closed my weary eyes,
To rest in blissful sleep,
A deep breath and I fell,
Into the deepest slumber.

I could see a world I never knew,
A world with beauty and serenity,
A world where you stood before me,
A world without a mutilated heart.

I knew none of it was real,
I knew it was all a dream,
I didn't care about the fact,
All I knew was I felt alive.

You told me you loved me,
This was a dream I know,
But I shall stay here forever,
To love you as if it was all real.

I shall never awaken again,
To the world filled with evil,
Where you pushed me away,
And destroyed my feeble heart.

I shall sleep forever,
I shall dream forever,
To feel your love forever,
And to love you forever.

Memory Lane

I remember the first time I saw you,
I never thought anyone so wonderful,
Could ever be free to walk the earth,
For angels are confined to heaven.

I remember the first time we talked,
Your beautiful face held behind it,
A spotless mind, shining brightly,
A mind so pure, the gods loved you.

I remember the first time we embraced,
My heart fluttered with sheer ecstasy,
All the troubles of this time were gone,
Replaced with serenity and tranquillity.

Even though you will never love me,
The way I am madly in love with you,
I know one thing, clearer than the day,
My wasted heart will always be yours.

Haunted

I hear it in the wind,
I feel it all around me,
I feel it inside of me,
The wind's whispers.

I hear it again ringing in my ears,
The wind whispers to me a word,
It says not a mere hollow word,
It whispers an all too familiar name.

Stay away, you soulless demons,
Leave me be in my own serenity,
Nine years since I slept in peace,
I beg you, leave me be as I am.

I still hear the name in the earth's breath,
As I cover my ears with my shaking hands,
As I hide in the dark corners of the house,
I still hear the name in the earth's breath.

I must not break tonight,
I must survive this ordeal,
I cannot break once more,
I still hear her name ringing.

The wind still howls her name,
I struggle to keep my reserve,
I struggle to maintain my sanity,
I struggle to survive this night.

The sun has finally risen in the east,
Surely the wind would subside now,
I released my hands from my ears,
No, it's there, I still hear her name.

The Reason

Three years ago,
I didn't know why,
I would wake up,
I had no purpose.

Thirty six months ago,
I didn't know where,
My life would take me,
I was deprived purpose.

Everyday I would see my reflection,
And ask myself "what are you doing?"
I never had a straight honest answer,
Till the day you entered my empty life.

I thought it was all a dream,
How could it be anything else?
You looked at me and I knew,
Everything would be perfect.

You saw my cold quivering heart,
You had touched it and nurtured it,
I had never seen a person so pure,
Who could renew my love for life.

I know not what came over me,
Perhaps the darkest of clouds,
Perhaps a scorned witch's curse,
Perhaps my own crazed mind.

This morning as I wake,
I feel a familiar feeling,
Nowhere worth going,
Nothing worth doing.

How could a day have any worth?
If it was wasted without your hug,
If it passed by without your voice,
If it passed by without your presence.

Open Eyes

Forgive me father for I have sinned,
I had taken to the pipe far too early,
I had indulged in wines too much,
I lost sight of what truly mattered.

I swear to you my good father,
The pipe shall never again be lit,
The wines shall no more be tasted,
My eyes exist only for the truth.

Forgive me mother for I have sinned,
I carelessly broke your faith in me,
I had never truly appreciated you,
I lost sight of what truly mattered.

I swear to you my mother,
Every waking hour of mine,
Shall be to repair everything,
My eyes exist only for the truth.

Forgive me brother for I have sinned,
I never saw how you tried to help me,
You had offered me endless advice,
I merely tossed it aside without a look.

I swear to you my brother,
The words you had spoken,
Have not fallen on deaf ears,
My eyes exist only for the truth.

Forgive me my greatest friend for I have sinned,
I know not what poison had entered my mind,
You bear a heart purer than all of the angels,
I mindlessly treated it like the heart of Satan.

I swear to you my dear friend,
The poison flows no more,
I see your heart shining bright,
My eyes exist only for the truth.

Olympian Sadism

A broken heart cried out,
"Lords of infinite wisdom
Heal me and unbreak me!
Revive this bleeding heart!"

"Ye Lords of Olympus!
Ye bade me to fall for one,
She trampled and tore me,
I lay here maimed before you."

Ye did revive this bleeding heart,
Renewed it with your sacred breath,
Gave it new life, new hope, new wings,
Amidst its first flight, ye showed it.

Ye showed it, ye told it,
"Give yourself to her,
She'll hold ye, love ye,
Show ye the truth in life."

The flying heart quickly said,
"Aye my lord! Ye doth know best!
Her heart is pure and wondrous!
The one who'll prove life's beauty!"

Soon the heart turned to Olympus,
"Ye lords! How could'st this be!
Ye were wrong! she tore me apart!"
She burned my wings! stabbed me!"

"Ye know'st all, yet thee stir me array!
Wherefore! What sins hath I sinned!
This heart can not suffer much more!
Unless? Yes! I see the truth clear now!"

"What was once the epitome of life,
Now occupies the darkest hearts!
What other reason could there be?
To punish such a loyal son of thee!"

"Forgive me, ye evil dogs!
For begging at thy feet!
Hath I known thy evils,
I'd stir towards the Titans!"

Resurrection

What is this I feel?
Does it stir once more,
Yes I know what it is,
My heart alive again.

It beats and flutters so swiftly,
Like a young bird attaining flight,
flying with energy and ecstasy,
My heart feels new and ecstatic.

But wherefore does it awaken?
Wherefore does it beat again?
I see, its clear, you caused this,
Your eyes resurrected me.

A heart which had died,
Brought forth with life,
As a phoenix does rise,
From its lifeless ashes.

My heart has risen,
With energy renewed,
All hope is restored,
My shadow vanished.

You gave back to me,
My ally, feared lost,
I place in your hands,
My endless undying love.

Who better to bequeath such a gift,
Than the one who brought me back,
Back from the darkest pits of death,
One wondrous enough to resurrect hope,

Forbidden Fruit

I'll never forget that day,
Our sister joined our paths,
It was truly a joyous day,
For I laid eyes on you.

I know one fact clear as day,
We can never ever be more,
You shall always be the fruit,
the most forbidden fruit to exist.

I dare not touch that fruit,
The consequences too dire,
Our sister would be lost,
And be enveloped in rage.

The rage would eat her whole,
The fire would burn our hearts,
The fire would sever our bond,
The fire leaves our future forbidden.

True Bliss

I have enjoyed the sweetest pleasures,
I have enjoyed in the basest of sins,
I have felt heaven, I have felt hell,
But what I feel now, is supernatural.

A simple touch! How could this be?
Your finger merely grazed my arm,
I felt a rush unlike any other before,
My head was numb, my heart sank.

Everything that ever existed in the world,
Just simply pales to your simple touch,
The softness and the warmth of your finger,
Turned every joy I had into hollow nuances.

The kiss! My word! My mind has been lost,
I have kissed a thousand lips before yours,
None have ever been nearly as sublime,
None had ever felt so angelic, so heavenly.

I see one simple holy truth now,
All of the sins, all of the pleasures,
Are just black dust and cold sand,
Compared to the true miracle of you.

Escape

Had I the wings of an eagle,
I would fly beyond the sky,
Escape the sight of humanity,
Feeling the air across my face.

How I wish I had the power of flight,
The wings would grant me release,
Release from all the rampant evils,
The evils which plague my home.

All the preachers on this land,
Beckon me to be more patient,
Darkness brings upon the light,
The light to save the faithful.

Lies! I see no light to end these evils,
I see no glimmer of hope approaching,
All I see are the sinners prospering,
And the good, punished and murdered.

Had I the wings of the eagle,
I would fly away from here,
To a place without the evils,
That forever plague my home.

Atheism

My suffering was long,
My suffering was great,
My reserve was shattered,
My mind was all but lost.

As my spirit lay weakened,
In the lifeless pits of Hades,
I begged all gods for respite,
None answered my yelp.

The gods had forsaken me,
A long serving pupil to Olympus,
Pledging my life to their might,
Pledging my soul to their wisdom.

My vision was blurred,
I was slowly being lost,
The life drained from me,
Taken by the arms of Hades.

Gods punish the wicked, aye!
But punish the pure, wherefore?
Their might seems lost to corrupt,
Their wisdom replaced by senility.

My True Friend

As far as I can remember,
Every morning I woke up to,
Was a morning absent magic,
absent colour, absent emotion.

My guard held up,
Like a solid phalanx,
Let no one near me,
none near my heart.

For none can stab me,
If none can come close,
For none can betray me,
If I have no people.

I don't know how you did it,
But I'm glad that you did,
My phalanx shattered like glass,
My heart stood bare before you.

I feared the worst, but got the best,
The one time my heart had lain open,
It was rewarded with the purest ally,
Thank you my friend, for being so true.

Word’s Surrender

I could not have asked,
For anything better,
Than your voice at morn,
And your hand forever.

A friend so pure,
Was only found,
Deep in myths,
And old stories.

But now that you're beside me,
Those old stories and myths,
Barely touched the surface,
Of the purity of a true friend.

I do not blame the writers, the authors,
For I know the fact better than most,
Words simply do not have the power,
To express my endless love for you.

Confusion

I look at the fork in my path,
A way which leads to my right,
Another which leads to the left,
I know not which to walk.

I know not from where I came,
I know not which path to take,
This path I had followed so long,
Nine years since I saw another way.

Perhaps this is god saving me,
Nine years have been treacherous,
Nine years have been painful,
Now I have a chance to save my soul.

I know not where which path leads,
For the future is a mystery to all,
Perhaps a new path could lead,
To either serenity or maybe..

Maybe into treachery unknown,
Perhaps treachery unmatched,
Nine years since that curse,
The curse laid by a fallen angel.

Perhaps the fork in the road,
Is my first and maybe only,
Chance to lift the curse forever,
Which path leads to freedom?

My heart says take the right path,
My mind still confused, unsure,
Must I leave all to fate again?
Which way is the happier one?

Awakening

What hell hath I endured?
Was’t all a godless dream?
It felt like nine torturous years,
But what hath awakened me now?

It felt like a million searing daggers,
Hath impaled my beating young heart,
My question remained yet unanswered,
Wherefore have I risen on this day and age?

I was given false hope from an evil angel,
The false hope which bore its own poison,
If t’was simply a dream, why doth it bleed?
Why doth this heart feel mauled and dead?

I did search for the answer with a barren chest,
I found none, only lies hidden in smiling strangers,
I hath ne’er felt so weak, so crippled, dead I was!
Dead I was! But yet the act of dying forsakes me!

Finally I hath stumbled upon a familiar face!
It would be a sin not to! My true best friend!
Hark! What’s this? A muffled drum doth beat.
T’was my heart, with all its strength it did tell me.

“Nay, she’s not simply a true friend,
She’s the true Angel, your true Angel,
Thou doth love her truly, I know the truth.
I know where I truly lie, deep in her soul!”

Insomnia

The sun rises before my eyes,
It does relieve the tired land,
From the swarming shadows,
Ever so present in the night.

My eyes fixed their gaze,
Upon my untouched bed,
The sheets neatly tucked,
The quilt peacefully rest.

My bed need not be fixed,
For no one had laid there,
The pillow's shape perfect,
No dent of a fellow's head.

The bed hasn't been touched,
By my sick and weary body,
The quilt hasn't been touched,
To relieve my shivering soul.

I remember not the peaceful sleep,
Since the evil angel cursed my soul,
She stunned my mind, stole my peace,
For the ninth year, I have yet to rest.

Fearless

We ran out of the palace that night,
We ran into the rain with all its might,
We ran to the pavement in love’s trance,
We held each other and in the rain we did dance.

She held me close, I held her closer,
We moved slowly in the dropping water,
I held her waist, I held her hand,
We danced in the rain under love’s demand.

Time passed by, we danced the night away,
We danced closely till the sun’s first ray,
she could stay no longer, her presence I was sure to miss,
for me to remember, she gave me a divine kiss.

Cold As You

Tomorrow is the day,
When we shall all say,
That it has been a year,
For which I am with her.

I love her more than life,
I endure bloody strife,
So as to see her sad no more,
The torture, she’d always ignore.

I loved her with my whole heart,
I cried if we were ever apart,
She’d simply notice the tear,
And leave me alone, meek and mere.

I had once loved the way she spoke,
It now reminds me the way my heart broke,
I left her the day before the grand event,
For loving one so cold could not make me content.

Forever and Always

We sat on the bench of the park,
On this most beautiful summer Tuesday,
We held hands and could feel our spark,
You said “this will last forever and always.”

You spoke to me an unholy lie,
“Forever” had ended in two days,
You left my heart in the cold to die,
You lied and said “forever and always”

I cried in the loneliness,
You attempted to make me sway,
I cried in your presence,
Take back your forever and always, I pray.

I'm Only Me When I'm With You

God once asked me,
“Would’st thou like to fly?”
I asked “Aye, but will she?”
He said “nay, she shan’t.”
“Keep’st thy wings with thyself.”

Stunned God questioned me,
“Wherefore you deny the gift of a god!”
“My lord, I shan’t fly if on the ground beith she,”
“Fool of a soul! I shan’t offer again,
Take the gift, take the wings!”

“Nay my lord I say again, nay,
I have no need for flight,
If on the ground she shall stay.”
“Very well, but answer me this once,
Thou hath refused godly powers, why?”
 
“This girl is more important than life,
She doth know me best,
Without her every second is strife,
Without her life beith a waste,
For I am only me when I am with her!”

Jump Then Fall

From our very first conversation,
I knew I loved everything about you,
A smile on your face brought one to mine,
A hug from you would cause my heart to renew.

My love, I know what I want in this life,
Take a leap of faith, take this jump with me,
Don’t be afraid to fall deep in my love,
Just jump then fall, let us together be free.

Every time we ever talked, I’d lose my focus,
Throughout our talk I’d only think one thing,
How internally I’d hope for a future with you,
The thought of our embrace made my heart ring.

Superstar

I sat in the crowd, the stage she took,
She charmed us all, with a single look,
The strongest souls her voice did break,
Every person’s breath, she did take.

The moon was her spotlight,
Her presence sparked my night,
All could see her brightness,
As she moved in the darkness.

I sat in the crowd, the stage she took,
My heart was hers, upon her one look,
My free will she did wholly take,
As my heart drowned in love’s lake.

Today Was A Fairytale

We met in the field,
Reunited after a wait,
An eight year wait,
Which felt like a lifetime.

You looked so gorgeous,
You held firm you were a mess,
I couldn’t fathom the lie,
That you looked like a mess.

I’d forget the evils of the world,
The evils which plagued the world,
The evils which would destroy the world,
As I looked in your eyes and forgot the world.

I hold one possession closer than my life,
The picture which holds your face,
The picture which is forever sacred,
A picture of you, which I have in my mind.

White Horse

I walk these empty halls,
With a broken heart,
And a fractured soul,
Reading the letter you wrote.

You wrote for forgivness,
After I saw you there,
Resting in his arms,
As you would in mine.

I had survived the perils,
Of a treacherous world,
As you wished me do,
And ride back to you.

I did ride to you,
As you bade me to,
Upon my white horse,
I would come to you.

As the Dawn would slowly break,
I had at last came home to you,
And was greeted with you in his arms,
And feel the pain of a shattered heart.

My trusted partner surely felt it,
My White Horse did feel my pain,
And rode off to the lands westwards,
Rode till the sun did set in front of us.

As I’d ride off to western unknowns,
I’d look at you one last time,
Surely you knew, you had to,
It’s too late to catch me now.

I'm Alive

You weep at the end,
Of another love story,
Another attempt to find,
The one who loves you.

Another unworthy soul has,
Tasted the honey in your lips,
Felt the softness of your skin,
Looked into your magical eyes.

As you attempt to unbreak your heart,
You wonder when you'll find the one,
One who completes you in every way,
The One would never ever hurt you.

You begin your search for the one,
As you look ahead to the next one,
But look behind, I'm right here,
I'm still alive, only for you, only you.

Regression

Breathe in and breathe out,
Thats what my brother said,
It will ease all the pain,
And give you power to live.

Thats how I survived,
For all these years,
Just breathing in,
And breathing out.

By god, it had worked,
I regained my reserve,
I regained my mind,
And I felt so alive.

Today as I laughed,
With all my brothers,
I felt you near me,
I felt you in the air.

I turned my head around,
I saw you standing there,
With the one you love,
And you looked at me.

My eyes locked into yours,
And your eyes into mine,
My reserve was lost again,
Along with my mind as well.

As you smiled and waved towards me,
My heart throbbed and sank so deep,
I struggled to raise my stiff hand,
And struggled to wave back at you.

As I am sitting here now, shaking,
With my freezing, quivering hands,
I remember the words of my brother,
Just breathe in and breathe out.

The Moon

The night has been long,
The night has been unruly,
the night has exhausted me,
Now I see it in the distance.

The moon is full tonight,
It's light kisses the earth,
The moon has finally shone,
Shone upon me and relieved me.

I stand here looking at the moon,
I shall stand here till daybreak,
For I am certain of that one thing,
One simple fact which keeps me alive.

If I stare at the moon through the night,
Far away you would glance upon it as well,
And maybe for a second, maybe for an hour,
We would be connected by that white moon.

I know I cannot look into your eyes now,
But I know when the moon shines upon us,
And you look back at it's infinite beauty,
I see your face at the heart of it's shine.

An Angel's Charm

I fly on the white wings of an angel,
Feeling the soft clouds on my face,
The cool breeze pushes my hair back,
The angel whispers words in a melody.

These words, no mortal can ever understand,
But the voice that carries them, captivates,
The lips that release them enchant all around,
I wish I could kiss those perfect lips forever.

But I'll forever long to taste her lips,
The purest fruit from heaven's orchard,
With an aroma which could deeply control,
Any heart, any soul for eternities to come.

Touch Of Heaven

I lay here poisoned by the world,
These drugs flow freely within me,
They have consumed me, hijacked me,
Their power is huge, but none compare.

None compare to the one,
The all-powerful toxin,
The simple touch of yours,
A simple finger on my skin.

The warmth created a spark,
Which would dance upon me,
And then intoxicate my heart,
And soon after, take my mind.

That is the purest ecstasy,
That ever existed on earth,
I lost my bearings, my soul,
To that deft touch of yours.

I wish to feel that glorious rush once more,
Which has too long been enjoyed by the heathen,
I wish to feel it one more time, and feel life,
The touch which took me to heaven and back again.

Revive Me

Another night has gone by,
I lay here, eyes wide awake,
Struggling for a free breath,
I am alive but not for long.

Another morning has gone by,
The same routine continues,
Wearing this smiling mask,
As I have forgotten how to.

The sun sets before my eyes,
That beautiful star vanished,
Faded deep into the horizon,
To shine on lands unknown.

As the sun shall surely rise,
My love for you surely grows,
As the sun shall surely set,
My heart’s strength surely fades.

The day is certainly not far away,
When the red sun will ascend,
And you will find me lying here,
With white eyes and a silent heart.

The End Is Near

Eight years ago I was blissful,
For I felt love for the first time,
Felt the wondrous power in me,
Felt the presence of my own angel.

As eight years slowly passed,
I was destroyed by its power,
My heart seething in this pain,
My soul mangled beyond revival.

What the learned say is true,
About the strength of love,
How it can give one meaning,
How it can wreck one’s life.

Eight years ago I felt its brilliance,
Bringing me unending happiness,
Happiness all because of your light,
Happiness which exists within fables.

Today I feel its savage powers,
My bruised heart beats so slowly,
Yet ‘Love’ continues this suffering,
The pain is beyond any imagination.

Today I appeal to you, my angel,
Save me! In the name of love!
Stop this pain! It’s far too harsh
Save me! Before I lose myself!