Ask The Voices

Gone are those days,
When you hid within,
Buried within a mask,
Hidden within shadows.

I must have tried for an age,
To smite you to the afterlife,
But you resisted as I had to,
You held on to your frail life.

You sought refuge within me,
Within my spirit and my mind,
All the time I'd hear your voice,
Shouting within my silent head.

Pointing me in the direction,
Promising glorious happiness,
Promising me a beautiful life,
Promising a heart full of bliss.

As I tread down the path you drew,
I followed it blindly with pure trust,
I pushed myself to a whole new life,
I pushed myself away from my past.

As I was setting within this shell,
The shell which you put me in,
You told me another tale of life,
You told me of the power within.

But the fates had turned away,
Plaguing my path with failure,
At every step and at every turn,
Condemned to pain and suffering.

As I was shipwrecked on lonely seas,
You spoke to me again and I listened,
The promise of true love, lost away,
The promise of a happy heart, broken.

Silence you passenger and hear me,
Answer my oldest question you must,
Take away the darkness within me,
And tell me the sin that deserves this.

My road has forever been paved,
With the noblest of all intentions,
Yet the fates see fit as they destroy,
Destroy my path and also my spirit.

Answer me now you passenger,
For my spirit is decaying away,
What terrible crime I committed,
To deserve torture before my eyes.

Tell me why I fail as I always do,
Why the happiness is always lost,
Why is it that no matter what I do,
The Angel is always further away.

Stonewall

To say my sanity had hanged,
Upon the weakest of threads,
Would truly be an understate,
The drop below would cripple.

Strung so high above the ground,
Couldn't even see the Earth below,
But I knew that any moment now,
The string would tear and hurl me.

I was not wrong and happened it did,
String lose and gravity took control,
Plummeting me towards the Earth,
And plunging my mind deep to hell.

But as my mind ceased flight,
Freefall gave way to a crash,
A crippling crash to the dirt,
Smashing my mind to sand.

My mind one with the dust,
My mind destroyed by fate,
My sanity torn by the angel,
My sanity lost to me again.

But as it almost dwindled away,
In the darkest of hellish abyss,
I found a place that felt safe,
My mind was close to fatality.

I must protect this last retreat,
Prevent anyone to enter again,
Prevent the world from taking,
My sanity once and for always.

I don't know where this place is,
But I know it shall keep me safe,
I shall never have another angel,
Enter within the safe zone again.

I'll build a wall around this place,
Towering higher than the heavens,
Towering beyond the angel's flight,
Protecting this safe place for life.

No one shall ever see this place,
No angel shall ever enter here,
My mind shall not be lost to you,
My mind will never be lost again.

The wall which you helped me build,
Fuelling my rage and my desperation,
Inflicting wounds to scar me forever,
You shall never enter here, I swear.