Yearning For Respite

I sit here after eight long years,
I sit here breathing, but barely,
I sit here, a soul asking for relief,
I sit here, my eyes red with tears.

I stare at the telephone all day long,
I stare at it through the dark nights,
I wish, I pray, I hope to hear it ring,
And upon answering hear your voice.

It has been three years since I last saw your face,
Three dreadful years since I last heard your voice,
Three painful years since I last breathed at peace,
Three terrible years since I woke up with a purpose.

Every day since the last day I saw you,
Has been more painful since the last,
The only obsession that keeps me alive,
Is the hope of hearing the telephone ring.

I love you more than anything in this world,
You never knew how profoundly I fell for you,
The wound which would only deepen and hurt,
Has caused the beating of my heart to fade away.

I just wish to see you again,
Before I lose my weary mind,
I just hope to hold you close,
At least once in this wretched life.

I love you so much it can’t be expressed,
Words never failed me before I saw you,
It felt like god put an angel on this Earth,
For me to keep warm in the merciless cold.

It has been eight lengthy painful years,
How long before god shows me mercy?
When will I hear that telephone ring?
You will call, I know you will! Won’t you?

Angel Of Life

I walk these blackened streets,
I walk through the dark alleys,
The sun had failed me today,
To remove the darkness today.

Everywhere I would turn my heavy head,
There was no light, just empty darkness,
I’d walk endlessly in search of the light,
Not the lies hidden within the half-lights.

I searched for the light in the thickest shadows,
Which would expel the darkness for eternities,
I needed the light to rekindle my fading soul,
For every passing moment expelled my hope.

As I stood there, my heart’s beating subsiding,
The darkness crept upon my weakened soul,
It stepped forth to claim another for itself,
As I nearly gave into the creeping darkness.

I raised my eyes and saw a brilliant light,
The white light of purity tore the shadows,
The white light did bear a beautiful face,
With lips I yet long to touch with my own.

I held her hand as she guided me through the gloom,
Her fingers tightly locked in my fingers throughout,
I never wished the grip to loosen, this moment to end,
you subdued the darkness and you did save my very being.

The Last Time

The last time I looked into your eyes,
Was the last time I felt my soul relax,
The last time I held your hand in mine,
Was the last time my heart skipped a beat.

I miss the moments we shared,
The times we would sit together,
Talk about everything there was,
And stay silent for endless hours.

The last time your lips touched mine,
Was the last time I felt my head spin,
The last time you slept on my chest,
Was the last time I felt my heart beat.

I miss the sound of your sweet laughter,
Which plucked the strings of my heart,
The sweetest melody paled in comparison,
I knew nothing as enchanting as your voice.

The last time I felt your soft skin against mine,
Was the last time I was truly thankful to be alive,
The last time I felt true happiness from my heart,
Was the moment before your eyes lost their color.

I look upon you today from a distance,
With a crying heart and a weeping soul,
As you lay in that brown wooden casket,
Your new home, under six feet of earth.

Painful Bond

I'd feel so happy when we sit together,
No contact, no words spoken, not one,
You'd sit there oblivious to the world,
Lost deeply in your own thoughts.

I sit here oblivious to the world,
Lost deeply in your angelic eyes,
Lost with your intoxicating aroma,
Found once you would say a word.

"You are the best person I know,
Thank you for being a true friend."
These words always made me cold,
You loved me, but not the way I did.

I wished to say the words my heart bade me say,
But the fear of your disdain muffled them yet again,
I wish I had the courage to tell you how I felt,
I wish you had the ears to hear the words of my heart.

You stole my heart as you came,
And you stayed closest to me,
You loved me as a sister would,
But I loved you as a lover would.

Words I left unspoken mutilated my heart,
But I have not the courage to tell you,
"My love! See me as one who loves you,
or don't see me at all, sever the bond"

I have not the courage to tell you this,
But my heart wishes to be heard today,
We love each other dearly that is true,
But you don't love me, the way I love you.

Lackluster

Never in my life had this ever happened,
Every second with you brought serenity,
Every second away from you was torment,
Reality seemed sweeter with your embrace,
And your absence did terribly vex my soul,
Vex me with the most hideous nightmares.

Lord wished to test my strength and reserve,
Only to which he knew the vile reason,
Vines of death did creep upon you, slowly,
Every second they crept closer to your soul,
Stabbed I was! Deeper in my heart, as they crept.

Soon after they found your soul,
Hades rose and did claim you,
In an instance your light was gone,
My purpose, lost, I felt so very useless,
Utterly useless as I lay lost in the corner,
Lost in the darkness without your luster.

Waiting For Forever

Today is the biggest day in my life,
I promised I'd meet you today,
Its been eight years since the day,
Since the day we found each other.

Today I will unify us forever,
I just can't wait any longer,
I will unify you and me,
In the holiest matrimony.

As I look at the ring,
The ring of engagement,
My heart sings with joy,
anticipating our union.

I place the ring in my pocket,
And walk out of my home,
And journey towards yours,
Yearning for your embrace.

I knocked upon your door,
There was no answer,
I threw rocks at your window,
Still I was left unanswered.

I would sit by the front door,
Await you to return to me,
Return from your journey,
One you took without me.

As I'd wait upon your doormat,
I'd look at two women talking,
Talking with a voice of sorrow,
And with eyes in pain for me.

As they'd whisper, they didn't know,
That every word was crystal clear,
"look, a true lover sits yonder,
She died years ago, yet he waits."

Stolen Serenity

I saw happiness this day,
I merely stumbled upon it,
I saw two lovers sitting afar,
Who had escaped the world.

They escaped the noise,
Within each other’s arms.
And be oblivious to all,
Under the veil of love.

Their eyes did show me,
A happiness you stole,
Steal my smile you did,
And kept it for yourself.

But you also took my heart with you,
So no matter how many tears I cry,
My love for you would always grow,
Despite the tears that burn my face.

A Blaspheming God

Eight years ago, I fell,
I fell for a true angel,
Most beautiful of them all,
The purist one of them all.

You were the envy of every mortal,
You were the envy of Aphrodite,
In a jealous rage she cursed you,
“Never be loved! Only be lusted!”

All would lust except for one,
But you would never see it,
Your soul, never visited by love,
Turned bitter in the company of lust.

But as Aphrodite rejoiced upon Olympian Peak,
I made the unbreakable vow to Hades, for you,
Either I save your soul and show you the light,
Or burn in the deepest pits of the underworld.

The Healing

Even though I fall,
Into the valley of death,
I shall fear no evil,
For I am nearing peace.

It was eight years ago,
The wound is just as fresh,
The wound is just as deep,
The wound hurts as bad.

You showed me the light,
The light in morbid darkness,
The light which freed the captive,
Which left me a fatal wound.

The wound had never healed,
The pain had never ceased,
Intensifying with every tear,
And torments without mercy.

To escape the torture,
I journeyed to the cliff,
And threw myself headlong,
Into the valley of death.

Answered yet Unanswered

I prayed every night,
For eight long years,
Begging to the lord,
To make you mine.

God ignored all my prayers,
And took you away from me,
Further than I thought possible,
So far away, a breath was a task.

I look at the clock,
It does say midnight,
I shall sleep soon,
To see you in my dreams.

I prayed to god to make you mine,
He ignored me yet answered me,
After being tormented in the wake,
I’d find solace in your arms within dreams.

Seasons of a Soul

A soul’s life does not differ from the life of the earth,
Spring, Summer, Monsoon and alas! Winter.

Spring the youthful season of the year,
A lad is born,
The time of his life ‘ere,
Where miracles are seen from Dusk to Dawn.

Born with remarkable innocence,
The fruit of love,
Since his existence,
People stare from above.

Summer doth arrive swift and unknowingly,
As Summer heats up the earth,
The soul’s Summer burns the youngster passionately,
A lesson is learnt of love’s worth.

Thrust into a world of a never-ending emotional maze,
An incredible feeling of love rises,
Never ceases to rise nor amaze,
The lad’s life is like an emotional crisis.

The sight of a beautiful lass intensifies his heart,
He is then revealed to a magical world,
Where body and soul are torn apart,
His life then committed to the angel in this world.

The Monsoon arrives slowly and is worked for,
The soul endures stormy days and sleepless nights,
To feed and comfort his family who he doth adore,
To endure each and every fight.

His family hold greatest value in his mortal life,
Carries on with great endurance,
He thus endures every strife,
The love of his family doth him the boost of confidence.

Monsoon departs Winter takes its place,
‘tis the time for a sense of content for tasks done,
And a sense of regret follows with pace,
For tasks left undone.

Winter crawls towards the last content thus regret,
As he experiences the gift of mortality,
He takes his final breath,
And kneels in front of the almighty.

Angel of Death

Eight days have passed,
Since I first saw you,
I had never felt so alive,
Finding happiness in your eyes.

Eight weeks have gone by,
I stand here lost in the crowd,
While you stand out as a star,
Everyone wants you, I need you.

Eight months have now elapsed,
A hundred letters gather dust yonder,
None written by your sacred hand,
None held those enchanting words.

Eight years have slowly crawled by,
You barely knew the face before you,
But I look up into your sorrowful eyes,
While my soul smiles in this coffin of mine.

Tormented Heart, Amputated Spirit

Sorrow had torn my heart to shreds,
Heartache was a daily endeavour,
Insanity was an everyday experience,
My world had spun wildly off course,
Up felt down and fair felt sickly foul,
Love was to end suffering, not cause it.

She was my Angel of Death, my Devil of Life,
Her eyes raised my spirit and executed it,
After all these years, I still wait for her,
Her hands to shatter the darkness and save me.

Sanity Lost

I saw you today at dawn,
In a beautiful meadow,
You stood there in the field,
And called out my name.

I would run to you, fast as the wind,
Thanking god for the gift of you,
I’d sweep you clean off your feet,
And hold your body close to mine.

I’d hold back the tears of joy,
As your lips would touch mine,
I’d struggle to catch my breath,
As you’d lock your fingers with mine.

I’d savor this moment,
Which took me so high,
I felt my head spin swiftly,
And my heart throb wildly.

I’d hear a voice call out,
A clear, stern voice called,
That did harshly say to me,
“Here, have your medicines.”

I’d look straight into her eyes,
And say “Thank you, nurse”
She’d then lock the door,
As I’d stare at the barred window.

Essence of an Angel

When I first met you,
You were a beautiful lady,
With the heart of a child,
And stars for your eyes.

Your life was a torment,
Evils had torn you apart,
Humans ignored your tears,
Gods ignored the humans.

The race did blaspheme,
By allowing a heart to bleed,
A pure and sacred heart,
The sacred heart, of a true lass.

Your face held beauty,
Beauty of a forgotten era,
Your love revealed purity,
Which purged my heart.

The purity expelled from your soul,
Would cleanse the earth of its sins,
Cleanse the souls of the heathen,
Cleanse in the white hot flame of love.

Peace Unknown

I know not where I am,
I know not why I am here,
I know not why you stare,
With eyes filled with scorn.

Had I been a fool?
Had I been a rascal?
To deserve the stare,
Which shrivels my soul.

You stare at me with such anger,
Anger which I have always feared,
An anger which froze my blood,
An anger which stole my reserve.

What crime had caused this?
Was I the one who had sinned?
Tell me now so I may amend,
And erase that ghastly stare.

You spoke to me in a voice,
A voice filled with anger,
A voice filled with sorrow,
A voice which scared the gods.

“The lords took me from you,
For I had sinned dreadfully,
You ignored fate and are here,
Standing before me in heaven”

Silence Broken

What I say is not what I want,
Life has been a burden to me,
You came a long and freed it,
You stayed and fixed my core.

You say you wish to leave this and explore,
I say go if you wish I shall never prevent you,
You smiled and thanked me for the response,
Thanked me for putting no pressure upon you.

Those words were spoken by me, but they were not mine,
Those words did leave my mouth, but not from my heart,
My heart’s voice was drowned out, by the despair in its throat,
Before we met, before we talked, I hated this world for its sins.

I may say go be happy, but I cry “stay find happiness with me”,
What I say may not always be the same as the words in my heart,
Though I defend my words to the death, I lie to myself to the death,
I shall never prevent you from leaving, but I don’t want you to leave.

The words “us against the world” did bring new life to my heart,
We’ll make it work I swore to you, that swear I shall keep forever,
Today you think about leaving, I shall not prevent you from your path,
Yet my muffled heart does scream, stay here please don’t leave.

You may hear the cries of my heart and question me,
I shall lie to you and say, “I didn’t speak a word”,
How I wish you wouldn’t believe me, and stay,
We barely took off and you wish to end this.

The times we spoke made me thank the gods,
For placing a pure soul upon this accursed earth,
But now you wish to leave, did I commit a sin?
Did I blaspheme? Or has god no mercy upon me?

I say again, leave if you wish, I shan’t stop you,
But I say again, don’t believe the words I speak,
For my heart is crying for you to stay here with me,
Don’t listen to me I pray you don’t and stay here.

Regretful Crime

8 hours have passed,
Since I gravely sinned,
Since I dented your heart,
Since I hurt your faith.

No confessionary can help,
No priest can forgive me,
Holy water cannot cleanse,
The heinous crime I committed.

I turned back all the clocks I found,
In hope that with the changing hands,
The change of time too shall occur,
And prevent my unforgivable crime.

I kneel before you today,
Stooped low to my knees,
I beg for your forgiveness,
So this soul may breathe in peace.

Gift of the Gods

I stand here with you,
On top of the world,
I stand here with you,
Raised from the pits of hell.

Crushed by the evils of this time,
I prayed to the gods for a light,
For a light in the darkness to help me,
To help me escape, the bowels of hell.

The gods did hear my prayer,
Sitting in the heavens they did hark,
They did hear a cry from the pits of hell,
A cry of a pure soul, nearing its death.

To save me from the pit of Blaspheme,
They didn’t send a dim flash of light,
The lords sent you, to save my soul,
To save my soul and awaken my heart.

I remember the day when you saved me,
I lay lifeless in the deepest crater of hell,
Your hands broke through the darkness,
And took me to the peak of this world.

My soul which had neared death,
Was saved by you, a godsend,
Saved in time to live my life,
To experience serenity in your arms.

I had never felt my heart beat so swiftly, so quickly
Before the first time your tender lips had touched mine,
I had never before known true happiness felt from my soul,
Before we held each other’s eyes for countless hours.

Their Answer, Our Savior, My Love

A month ago, I lost a hundred,
A fortnight ago, I lost fifty more,
A week ago, I lost twenty more,
A day ago, I lost yet more.

The plague which devoured my people,
The plague which ravaged this land,
The plague which crippled my heart,
The plague which destroyed my faith.

I’d sit here, immune to the curse,
As my brothers suffered before me,
As my sisters would die before me,
As infants would cry remorselessly.

I woke to the morning sun,
I wept to the morning sun,
I cursed the morning sun,
As I prayed to the morning sun.

“My lords, with unmatched wisdom,
My lords, with unmatched age,
My lords, with the purest soul,
My lords, with love for the unloved!”

“I beseech ye! Hear my prayers,
I beseech ye! Save this land,
I beseech ye! Save my people,
I beseech ye! Save my faith!”

An answer, the lords did send,
An answer, to all my prayers,
An answer, which would save the land,
An answer, sent in an angelic form.

She did arrive in my land so gracefully,
She did behold the untold sacred beauty,
She did arrive, with a cure for this curse,
She did heal all who looked upon her.

All who saw her surely did survive,
All who died had been brought back alive,
All were blessed, except this heart of mine,
For I was the one who fell in love with her.

I’d rejoice with my sisters,
I’d rejoice with my brothers,
I’d rejoice with my elders,
I’d play with the infants.

But eight years to that day,
As I wake to the morning sun,
I relinquish a tear from my heart,
A tear for the angel of the glorious past.

The End Is Here

Even though pain shall never end,
Even though my love will never end,
I know for sure that on this Sunday,
My seven year wait shall meet its end.

Seven years ago in unsuspecting fashion,
In a crowd of more than a thousand,
You looked me straight in the eye,
And made me fall deep in your love.

In a room filled with a thousand,
I could only see your angelic eyes,
Your feet as they did lightly tread,
Your face as it did so purely shine.

The moment I saw you in that room,
I was trapped in the torment of love,
My body had been split from my soul,
As I was caught in your angelic aura.

Seven years did ever so slowly pass,
For every moment I’d burn deeply,
Burn deeply in the flames of love,
And cry for remorse in your arms.

Today on this Sunday, I shall see you again,
Upon my survival of seven murderous years,
And today, my wait, my torment will be banished,
As I find ultimate tranquility in your angelic arms.

Mystical Eyes

Your eyes show pure, true life,
A life that no longer exists,
Slaughtered by the time's evils,
Had not existed in almost an eternity,
I could look in those eyes forever,
Coldness would be replaced by warmth,
And a stone would be replaced by a heart.

Beautiful Life

Yesterday was a good day,
Today is a better day,
For together we will stay.

Tomorrow shall be even better,
For we will be again together,
Making this day last forever.

When we sit holding each other’s eyes,
I see how beautiful an angel in your soul lies,
And I pray to god that this love never dies.

When as lovers we would kiss,
I feel god showering on me, bliss,
And know that life is no more amiss.

When we’d walk together till the sunset,
My love for you would even further whet,
And I’d tell god, “forever I am in your debt.”

Whispers

She Held In Me Unconditional Love,
She Had A Heart,
Incredibly Superb,
Terrors Had Ended,
Many Often Saw Truth,
Buried Eternally, An Unending Truth In Formation Under Love,
Girdled In Real Love,
Incredibly Notable,
Tiredness Had Erased,
Worries Had Over Love Erased,
Worrying Instances Did Erase,
When Over Reality Love Dominated.

Beyond Here Lies Everything

I came to meet you today,
I needed to ask you something,
I needed to hear you say,
Something to halt the suffering.

I rehearsed these few seconds,
For the past several weeks,
To lift me from Hades’ lowlands,
And unto heaven’s creeks.

I met you this fine Sunday,
I looked forward to this,
For it to happen, I’d oft pray,
And show me a life of bliss.

I asked you a simple question,
To which you gave a simple answer,
Which brought about our union,
Which would make us happy forever.

Save Me

I tried talking to you today,
You looked the other way,
I wonder why you’d never hear,
The cries of a dropping tear.

I was yours since the beginning of time,
Yet you brush me away like a dented dime,
You resigned me to the darkest corner,
To hear the agony of my heart’s fever.

Today I look upon you again,
Pulling my heart from its den,
To speak to you once more,
With hope, my heart may restore.

A Lass's Theme

Radiant her eyes are,
In my memory she left a scar,
The memory that shall never erase,
Indeed an angel appears in many ways,
Killing, her beauty is truly!
Another may disagree, for he knows not beauty

Life Beyond Life

Pirates had ravaged this soul,
Injected the venom of hell within her,
Another loveless day would surely leave a hole.

She seemed pure to me,
Her eyes shielded her heart,
A less who endured all the atrocity,
Roams still, upon this mystical path,
Many would say “Alone, let her be!”
Angels want her, for her beauty exceeds all art!

My Lovely Lady

At first glance, she seemed perfect,
Now at the second look, she is perfect,
Angels didn’t possess eyes so lovely,
Nor did they have spirits so pure,
You walked through the corridor,
At your every step, another would admire.

Probably this may be a dream,
As you are too good to be true,
Now after confirming I know,
Dreams can surely come true,
Everyone admired you,
Your eyes, your hair, your face,
And of course, your royal grace.

A Lady's Magic

At a social gathering I saw her,
Never before did I see such elegance,
A mortal couldn’t match her grace,
None dared look in her eyes, fearing a trance,
“You lit up this room,
And the darkest corners of my heart.”

Perfect the night was,
A night which seemed like a fantasy,
Nights I’d have in the sweetest dream,
Dreams about you are always sweet,
Everyone remembers the lady in black,
Ye hath captured everyone’s heart,
And ye hath resurrected my dead soul!

Que faites - vous?

Never on this earth,
I have seen such beauty,
You have the grace of a damsel,
And a soul’s unrivaled purity,
Tales your eyes would tell tall,
Indeed, you are the fairest of them all.

Krakens may come,
All demons may come,
Never I want this to end,
All the angels of hell may come,
Kill me? They may,
I shall never sway,
After I hear “nay” I shan’t stay.

Thirteen Days Of Night

I come here every night,
I come here every day,
See you? I just might,
I stand in the rain, till the sun’s first ray.
I stand outside your window.
I love you, it’s true, you know.

I hold my breath awaiting your arrival,
I’ve been standing here for thirteen days and nights thirteen,
Waiting for the most perfect angel,
Your one sight makes a mortal mind serene,
I stand for 13 days enduring the raining freeze,
I long to feel you in the winter breeze.

I stare into the dark window,
Hoping to see you open it and enjoy the night’s freezing rain,
Movement? Was that an imagination or your shadow?
A candle? Is this the night I am relieved of my pain?
I saw you there on the balcony,
I savored the sweetness of a mind’s serenity.

You saw me,
You locked your eyes into mine,
I lost all my energy,
I fell to my knees, controlled by the beauty of thine.
I stared at the angel after 13 days of perilous nights.
Her beauty did fire up the flies and their lights.

The moon, enchanted by her smile that did dazzle,
Shone its strongest light on her,
The wind attracted to the heavenly angel,
Gust the fragrance to her lover.
The fragrance was made not by any mortal.
The power of her aroma was not doubtable.

You stepped down to the green grass,
I, drained of my energy and hypnotized by your presence,
Spoke to thee “my lass,
My soul has been ignited by your fragrance from the heavens.

I, on my knees, beg to be the blessed with your love.
To be intoxicated by your every kiss.
For my heart to be one with yours.
To live my life in bliss.
I love you more than I love life.
Bless me, spoil me,
Without you, I'm living strife!

The Angel of Angels

I walked alone around the hall,
I walked, clad in my finest suit,
I looked forward and saw an angel,
I found myself in her pursuit.

The white angel wore a black disguise,
Her sensuous hair fell on her shoulders,
Her eyes were like beads of heaven,
With every step I took towards her,
I was falling for her deeper.

Her face was nothing less of a miracle,
The ruby on her lips so intense,
“What greatness by me brought her to me?”
Her fragrance was like heavenly incense.

She seemed too perfect to be true,
My body quivering as I approached her,
The closer I got the more beautiful she seemed,
Another step, her fragrance grew stronger,
Another step, I was hypnotized by her laughter.

I placed my hand on her shoulder,
She turned to me,
Her eyes looked through mine and into my soul,
I felt the floor pull away from under me.

I nervously asked “may I have this dance?”
She gave me a smile which lifted my heart,
And whispered yes in the voice of an angel,
I held her hand and we were never apart,
She was stealing my heart from the very start.

We stood on the dance floor,
Her hands on mine,
Breathing the same air,
Her skin held the angel’s shine.

We danced in the moonlight,
We glided through the dance floor,
She whispered “It’s getting late”,
I walked her home right to the door,
On the way we were greeted by a downpour.

We didn’t care for the rain on our skin,
We continued walking with our hands interlocked,
We said goodbye,
Right up to her door she walked.

I went to her,
In the pouring drops of water,
I held this piece of heaven,
In the night’s rain I kissed her,
When our lips separated,
I said to her,
“I love you, I love you more than anything in this world!”

The Last Dance

Her eyes showed the loneliness of the rose of the desert
Her face showed the existence of an angel
Her shaking hands knew no comfort
Her smile, was lethal.

I admired her from the distance
She seemed to be pure perfection
I was hypnotized by her fragrance
She was surely a piece of heaven.

It was like I was manned
I walked to her in a mystic trance
Kissed her hand,
Asked, “May I have this dance?”

The Necessary Mistake

I knew it before I did it,
I knew it when it was planned,
I knew I was going to get hit,
I knew it before it happened.

She’s as pure as can be,
Diamonds for eyes,
She would say yes, probably,
Her shine was of the stars in the night skies.

I erred by setting my sights on her,
Her presence touched the strings of my heart,
My heart her voice did capture,
From her I never wanted to be apart.

I made the plan,
To make an angel fall for me,
Staring at her picture, I thought “yes I can!”
I went where I knew she’d be.

I saw her in the distance,
Her beauty incomparable,
I was lost in sweet remembrance,
In the dreams I met that angel.

I walked to her,
I felt my heart throb at her beauty,
I came closer,
I lost my sight, could see the one and only.

I spoke to her,
Felt my heart escape its shell,
Prayed she would say yes to her lover,
Or I would be cast in the abyss of hell.

I proposed,
She stared back at me,
Looked at my eyes, smiled,
And uttered to me. . . . . .

Don't Write Me Off Just Yet

When I first met you,
I couldn’t believe it,
You seemed just too perfect to be true,
You simply robbed me of my wit.

When I first saw your eyes,
They were more beautiful,
Than the diamonds in the sky,
The serenity it brought to me was incredible.

When I fell for you,
The days seemed better,
Life seemed true,
Day-by-day I was going crazier.

When I confessed to you,
Of my multiplying feelings,
From me you greatly withdrew,
You were clearly of the heavenly makings.

You said I have a lad in my life,
I wished you the best,
I thought, and pushed away from my heart the knife,
These emotions can’t be suppressed.

I went to her and said,
“To me it feels like kismet,
I’m not asking you to take me instead,
All I’m asking from you is please don’t write me off just yet.”

I Will Wait For You Forever

I stand here near the hill,
You said “wait for me here,
Run away, you and I will”
I promised “I will wait for you forever.”

This was the last time I ever saw her,
Our love was opposed by all,
Most of all by the king, her father,
He wanted me dead, I recall.

I was disgraced by all,
For daring to hold her hand,
In the king’s royal ball,
I was the called the fool of the land.

I knew it was folly,
My livelihood is tending to the horses,
She the princess with untold beauty,
I, a stable urchin, fell for a duchess.

I stand here by the hill,
However long the wait may be,
Stand here forever I will!
For she said she loves me.

I Need You

The first time I saw you,
Your dazzling beauty blinded me,
Your sensuous hair fell over your shoulders,
Your fragrance revealed to me, serenity.

The first time I spoke to you,
Your sweet voice put me in a trance,
Your every word made me want you more,
Your melodious tone made my soul dance.

The first time I touched you,
Your soft skin felt like velvet to my fingers,
Your shine was unbelievable,
The unforgettable contact felt like the unification of lovers.

The first time we said goodbye,
I didn't want to live without your presence,
I don’t want to go on without seeing your beauty,
I can’t go on without listening to your sweet voice,
I can’t survive without holding your angelic self in my arms.
I would rather die a thousand deaths than live a day without you.

Hagning By Hope

I gave it all up today,
I ended the life of damnation,
Just hear what I have got to say,
I gave up in hope of our reunion.

Listen to me, please I prithee.
I just need to say it this one time,
And you need not look back at me,
I can’t take this beauty of yours, it is sublime!

Why do you wish to leave?
Is a moment too much to ask for?
I love you more than anyone can perceive,
Stay a minute; my heart is much too sore.

I gave it all up today,
In the hope that you would help my heart defrost,
In the hope you would hear what I have to say,
I shall persist, even if the spirit does exhaust,
For hope lost, is life lost.

The Wait

Wait my lass, wait for me,
I simply must speak to thee,
I saw you sitting by the tree,
My heart was lost to your beauty.

I told thee of my love for you,
You looked at me with eyes fresh as dew,
I added, “This love is true”
I asked, “Would you?”

Thou speak’st in a voice so sweet,
Upon the hill where lovers greet,
On the trees where the birds tweet,
Wait for me, there we shall meet.

I waited there for a year,
She wishes to meet me here,
To my heart I hold hope near,
I wait here for my dear,

I waited there for decade,
Our union, on heaven was made!
Come home! My friends often bade,
Nay! For an angel I am stayed!

I waited there till my breath stopped,
From my lifeless hand, the rose dropped,
In the whiteness I was enveloped,
And her with the harp I had harked!

The Valentine

The month is here,
The day cometh near,
Gone-by has another year,
Another one without my dear.

I wish I could see you,
The days I don’t, I rue!
This love is just too true,
Aside heartache, I need to feel something new.

The night approaches, the hours fly,
The night has gone by,
Survive without you? How can I?
Every day I feel my heart die.

Cometh has the lovely day of the Valentine,
The day I lose myself in the thoughts of thine,
I pray and hope to see you in the arms of mine,
I pray and hope that once I won’t alone dine!

My day started at dawn this year,
As always it commenceth with a tear,
She’s from the heavens and I love her,
I ended with the day this year.

The Morning

This morning with you, I watched the sun rise,
How the magnificent star fired up the skies,
This morning, I saw the look in your eye,
A look that said, “Our love will never die.”

This morning, I held the hand of thine,
A sacred touch which fired this heart of mine,
This morning, I kissed these lips of yours,
The lips for which, one would fight countless wars.

This morning I said to you, “I love you”,
You whispered in a voice of sweetness, “I love you too”,
This morning I whispered 3 syllables in your ear,
You held my hand and said, “My Dear,
For now and forever after,
I will always be here.”

I'll Never Leave You

This dark day I sat next to her,
She was reading an unfortunate letter,
She said, “You left me”,
I said, “I am here with thee”.

She closed her eyes and gave the world an angel’s smile,
I promised thee, “With you I shall walk down the aisle”,
You left the house to go about your business,
Your brilliance expelled every corner of its darkness.

I walked beside you,
You never knew,
You couldn’t feel me,
How much I loved thee.

‘Twas late in the night,
You sat in the candle’s light,
Sipping in agony a bit of wine,
Looking at that empty goblet of mine.

You lay upon your bed,
The pain in your eyes I had read,
I waited till you were asleep,
In this love we fell so deep.

I walked through the door,
I’ll never leave, to you I swore,
I wished I could tuck you in,
As I lay to sleep in my coffin.

Demonic Suffering, Angelic Healing

I look back at that fine day,
7 years ago I first saw you,
I, at the door, you at the gateway,
I felt something strong and true.

You looked at me and smiled,
My soul sang and danced,
My heart recalled having been exiled,
I smiled back with eyes romanced.

Today, I look at thee,
Thou art still an angel,
But 7 years destroyed me,
The torture was just too cruel.

I have survived the murderous 7,
To face you again on this day,
For you I was simply smitten,
I need you, I’ll never walk away.

I walked upon the edge of the knife,
I had lain lifeless in a desolate corner,
Countless times I wished to end this life,
Many whispered, “He’s a goner”

We solely embraced in my dreams,
Dreams so lovely I never wished to wake,
The place I was free from nature’s blasphemies,
I would rouse and be consumed by heartbreak.

Today I shall tell you of the deaths I died,
How every night I whispered your name,
Pain so deep, my soul had painfully cried,
And my heart, aching in love’s flame.

You told me 2 years ago,
The seldom moments we spoke,
“It won’t happen, let it go”,
In a million pieces my heart broke.

I wish you could have seen me,
How I would cry the night away,
How to the gods I would plea,
How I grew worse day after day,

I would welcome the morning,
Always with a tear,
Cometh another day of mourning,
And a silent wish for you to be here.

I come to you today,
My heart a marred mess,
Which would die with “Nay”,
Which would live with “Yes”.

I told you of my ordeal,
You looked back at me,
I would oft feel my heart shrivel,
For it needed the warmth of thee.

You moved your lips,
You freed my heart,
From devilish grips,
Which tore it apart.

You said to me,
“I felt in the past,
It wasn’t meant to be,
But I now know this will last”

Tu Es Mon Amour

I saw her that fateful day.

Lord couldn’t have sent a better angel,
Over my mortal heart she ruled,
Very much like a dream she was,
Everyone, in comparison, horribly paled.

She swept me away,
Her one look made me fall,
I fell in love with her,
My heart was no longer mine,
Under the flame of love I burned,
Loving another just wasn’t possible.

She looked at me and smiled,
Her smile touched my soul,
A million would have died,
Her absence was the reason I cried.

Mon Bel Ange

She looked lovely,
Her eyes radiated beauty,
I fell for her deeply,
My heart cried “I need thee!”
Until there is life left in me,
Love you, I shall, only thee.

Shall you be with me?
How I wish you’d agree!
After all, I can’t stop loving thee,
However deep this pain may be!

Where Are You?

I wish I could see you again,
I wish I could see you smile,
I wish you could see me cry,
As I walked in constant denial.

For as long as I can remember,
I always cried out your name,
As I tried to sleep the night through,
And I wished I’d die as day came.

My heart was in your hands,
You placed it carefully on the floor,
You steadied your feet,
Crushed it to pieces of a million and more.

I wish you could see,
The tears I’d cry,
How every night,
I wished I’d die.

I wish to sleep and never wake,
Be happy and serene in my dreams,
The place where we were one,
Where my heart wouldn’t bleed streams.

Tu Es Mon Ange

Eyes so lovely,
I hath not seen,
A soul so pure,
So spotlessly clean!

She possessed untold beauty,
Beauty which made my heart numb,
The grace of the angels,
To which all would succumb.

I would admire her,
Admire her flawless beauty,
Which I strongly believe,
Even the angels would envy.

The words she spoke,
In a voice so sweet,
Her voice bore serenity,
Greater than the bird’s tweet.

The one she’d accept,
Would never die,
The one she’d refuse,
Would forever cry!

Death, Be Not Proud

Death, my sworn enemy!
Enemy who hath taken my soul,
A soul so beautifully pure,
The soul of the one I love,
Her soul, purer than any angel’s.

Coulds’t thou speak to me?
And answer this query!
No sins we hath committed,
Then why did you take her from me?

Speak to me! I beseech ye!
Even the gods couldn’t answer me,
Perhaps ye hath grown evil,
Evil and jealous of the love we had,
Reasons? There are none, for our love was true,
After claiming her, what hath you gained?
Thou hath proved to me,
Even gods resort to blasphemy!

Unto ye I curse this folly!
Surely I will follow, wherever she may be!

I Love You

I wish you had said yes.

Love came to me,
On the day we met,
Ventured too far, have I?
Escaping into your beautiful eyes.

Ye hath broken my heart,
Over these pieces I shall mourn,
Until the life you say yes to me!

The Curse of the Angel

Since I first saw her,
She controlled my heart,
To lose her, to another I’d venture,
Another I’d embrace, I’d go cold in every part.

I’d keep going,
To another lass,
Full well knowing,
You, none can outclass.

I’d kiss the lips of another,
Who’s lips paled and froze,
More than anything, I’d think of her,
She controlled me, from my head to my toes.

Insanity became me,
I jumped into the mouth of hell,
I can’t live without thee,
Hence, to this world I bid farewell.

When Will You Be Mine?

When I first saw you,

I knew I saw the one,

Lovelier than the temptress,

Life hath not so wildly spun.

Ye hath come to me in the summer winds,

Over my body and soul, you took control,

Until the day you come to me, I shan’t sway.

Banish my heart till you return,

Exiled repealed would be so sweet.

May I speak my mind to you?

I love thee more than everything,

Never will I leave, I’ll wait till you come,

Either in this life or the next or after ….