Peace Unknown

I know not where I am,
I know not why I am here,
I know not why you stare,
With eyes filled with scorn.

Had I been a fool?
Had I been a rascal?
To deserve the stare,
Which shrivels my soul.

You stare at me with such anger,
Anger which I have always feared,
An anger which froze my blood,
An anger which stole my reserve.

What crime had caused this?
Was I the one who had sinned?
Tell me now so I may amend,
And erase that ghastly stare.

You spoke to me in a voice,
A voice filled with anger,
A voice filled with sorrow,
A voice which scared the gods.

“The lords took me from you,
For I had sinned dreadfully,
You ignored fate and are here,
Standing before me in heaven”

Silence Broken

What I say is not what I want,
Life has been a burden to me,
You came a long and freed it,
You stayed and fixed my core.

You say you wish to leave this and explore,
I say go if you wish I shall never prevent you,
You smiled and thanked me for the response,
Thanked me for putting no pressure upon you.

Those words were spoken by me, but they were not mine,
Those words did leave my mouth, but not from my heart,
My heart’s voice was drowned out, by the despair in its throat,
Before we met, before we talked, I hated this world for its sins.

I may say go be happy, but I cry “stay find happiness with me”,
What I say may not always be the same as the words in my heart,
Though I defend my words to the death, I lie to myself to the death,
I shall never prevent you from leaving, but I don’t want you to leave.

The words “us against the world” did bring new life to my heart,
We’ll make it work I swore to you, that swear I shall keep forever,
Today you think about leaving, I shall not prevent you from your path,
Yet my muffled heart does scream, stay here please don’t leave.

You may hear the cries of my heart and question me,
I shall lie to you and say, “I didn’t speak a word”,
How I wish you wouldn’t believe me, and stay,
We barely took off and you wish to end this.

The times we spoke made me thank the gods,
For placing a pure soul upon this accursed earth,
But now you wish to leave, did I commit a sin?
Did I blaspheme? Or has god no mercy upon me?

I say again, leave if you wish, I shan’t stop you,
But I say again, don’t believe the words I speak,
For my heart is crying for you to stay here with me,
Don’t listen to me I pray you don’t and stay here.

Regretful Crime

8 hours have passed,
Since I gravely sinned,
Since I dented your heart,
Since I hurt your faith.

No confessionary can help,
No priest can forgive me,
Holy water cannot cleanse,
The heinous crime I committed.

I turned back all the clocks I found,
In hope that with the changing hands,
The change of time too shall occur,
And prevent my unforgivable crime.

I kneel before you today,
Stooped low to my knees,
I beg for your forgiveness,
So this soul may breathe in peace.

Gift of the Gods

I stand here with you,
On top of the world,
I stand here with you,
Raised from the pits of hell.

Crushed by the evils of this time,
I prayed to the gods for a light,
For a light in the darkness to help me,
To help me escape, the bowels of hell.

The gods did hear my prayer,
Sitting in the heavens they did hark,
They did hear a cry from the pits of hell,
A cry of a pure soul, nearing its death.

To save me from the pit of Blaspheme,
They didn’t send a dim flash of light,
The lords sent you, to save my soul,
To save my soul and awaken my heart.

I remember the day when you saved me,
I lay lifeless in the deepest crater of hell,
Your hands broke through the darkness,
And took me to the peak of this world.

My soul which had neared death,
Was saved by you, a godsend,
Saved in time to live my life,
To experience serenity in your arms.

I had never felt my heart beat so swiftly, so quickly
Before the first time your tender lips had touched mine,
I had never before known true happiness felt from my soul,
Before we held each other’s eyes for countless hours.