Regression

Breathe in and breathe out,
Thats what my brother said,
It will ease all the pain,
And give you power to live.

Thats how I survived,
For all these years,
Just breathing in,
And breathing out.

By god, it had worked,
I regained my reserve,
I regained my mind,
And I felt so alive.

Today as I laughed,
With all my brothers,
I felt you near me,
I felt you in the air.

I turned my head around,
I saw you standing there,
With the one you love,
And you looked at me.

My eyes locked into yours,
And your eyes into mine,
My reserve was lost again,
Along with my mind as well.

As you smiled and waved towards me,
My heart throbbed and sank so deep,
I struggled to raise my stiff hand,
And struggled to wave back at you.

As I am sitting here now, shaking,
With my freezing, quivering hands,
I remember the words of my brother,
Just breathe in and breathe out.