Painful Bond

I'd feel so happy when we sit together,
No contact, no words spoken, not one,
You'd sit there oblivious to the world,
Lost deeply in your own thoughts.

I sit here oblivious to the world,
Lost deeply in your angelic eyes,
Lost with your intoxicating aroma,
Found once you would say a word.

"You are the best person I know,
Thank you for being a true friend."
These words always made me cold,
You loved me, but not the way I did.

I wished to say the words my heart bade me say,
But the fear of your disdain muffled them yet again,
I wish I had the courage to tell you how I felt,
I wish you had the ears to hear the words of my heart.

You stole my heart as you came,
And you stayed closest to me,
You loved me as a sister would,
But I loved you as a lover would.

Words I left unspoken mutilated my heart,
But I have not the courage to tell you,
"My love! See me as one who loves you,
or don't see me at all, sever the bond"

I have not the courage to tell you this,
But my heart wishes to be heard today,
We love each other dearly that is true,
But you don't love me, the way I love you.